Here, still.

I had been hesitant to do updates in the first few weeks. There was the moderate OHSS, lots of worries about my dad, his death, and dealings with our new house. Add the fatigue that made me want to sleep sleep sleep, add the hunger that made me want to eat eat eat.
All in all, not much time and enthousiasm for blog updates. I wrote a few, but never posted.

But here I am, on the doorstep of second trimester at 14 weeks today. Time to start enjoying this pregnancy, and if I ever want to keep score, I have to do it now, as I have already forgotten so much.

So hopefully, if I can keep it up, in the next days, weeks and months, there will be posts again. I'll do the already written ones first, so chronology might not be consistent. 

I don't know what they'll be about. My pregnancy, obviously, including the wonders and anxieties of someone pregnant after IFV/ICSI. But I would also like for this blog to be a place where I can write about the joys of being pregnant, perhaps complain a little (just a little! I'm still SUPER gratefull) about the side effects, and reflect on other things happening in my life.

I hope you will enjoy reading it. 

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For those of you who don't follow me on Twitter, and don't know me IRL...

Yup.

I'm pregnant. With twins.

More blogs coming soon!

Pause - Fast Forward - Play

I feel like I haven't updated my blog in months. Technically true: my last post is dated April 11. Two months and a day ago. But it feels like six, or even a year. A lot has happened. And my that I mean A LOT!!!

Those of you who follow me on twitter or know me IRL know what happened in those months, especially in the last four weeks.

The short version of what transpired in the last 9 weeks:
My dad, who was recovering from last years ordeals of surgeries, ch.emo and related ilnesses, found out his ca.ncer was back, spreaded everywhere and inoperable (8 weeks ago). A short while later (5 weeks ago), he got a fever, which turned out to be an antibiotic resistant bacteria, he got septic and we were told he wouldn't survive (4 weeks ago). But then he did, a miracle to us and even all the doctors and nurses, so Fiance and I decided not to cancel the wedding and we got married 2.5 weeks ago, with dad present. We did cancel the honeymoon, went on a citytrip instead, and now we're both back to work.

It's crazy to write it down like this, I know. It does no justice to all the emotions, the tears, the joy, the worries, the beautiful moments. I may or may not write more about these hellish and at the same time wonderful months. It might be therapeutical, but at the moment I don't know if I feel like it. But at least everyone is up to speed.


It is safe to say that "rollercoaster ride" does not even begin to describe what these weeks have been like. My head feels out of breath if that's possible. But hey... why stop now with the madness... There is always room for some more. So, we're starting IVF #2 tonight...





That is, if Husband (hehe :-)) and I pass our test/ultrasound Thursday.