Week 1-11

I have been wanting to do these updates, but feared they would jinx stuff, or I didn't have time, energy or motivation. I wrote this one several weeks ago, and fingers crossed, I'm posting it. It's old, hopefully I will remember to write a new one soon!

Week 1-11

The SuperB's:
Despite everything going on, so far they're doing good (knock on wood). On each ultrasound they measured on or even ahead of schedule. We saw heartbeats at 6w3d, wiggles and waves at 9w2d and even a somersault at 10w3d. Confirmed bodyparts on ultrasounds: hearts, arms and legs, brains,fingers, a bladder and one eyelens. So, what you see below, times 2.

Pregnancy symptoms:
The sore and growing bewbs came with the progesteron suppositories - starting week 3. After that mild/moderate OHSS, then came fatigue and food cravings and aversions. Around week 6-8 nausea kicked in. The day after a GP-visit where I asked for elastic socks - although we both agreed I didn't NEED them - tingling, numb and painfull legs. That was on a busy clearing day at work, where I also experienced my first round ligament pains. Oh. And pimples. Lots of 'em.

Clothing
In our second waiting week (week 4) I developed OHSS and a belly to go with it. No pants other than the yoga kinds, or I had to let them unbuttoned. After that, even there was no weight gain, I never got back to my pre-ICSI belly. Pants started to get uncomfortable at 7-8 weeks (thank you elastic button holes). I started showing after  my dad's passing, around 9w4d. Though considering the menu that week, it probably is part take-out-food showing too.

Sleep
The pro.gesterone made me sleepy, the OHSS kept me awake because of shortness of breath and generally feeling uncomfortable. Since then I have been tired in different gravities, of course aided by the other stuff going on. No trouble falling asleep, but staying asleep is a challenge some (a lot of) nights. Thankful for timezones and consequently, 24/7 online twitter-friends all over the world.

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For those of you who don't follow me on Twitter, and don't know me IRL...

Yup.

I'm pregnant. With twins.

More blogs coming soon!

The other universe

In the other universe, where we are not the "1 in 8 couples" who face infertility, I already have a child. My first that is. Maybe a second on the way. I probably would have posted ultrasound pictures on Facebook. Or better, if I am as digital on the other side as I am here, my child probably would have had a Facebookpage while still in the womb. We would have had less discussions about what our next house should be because there would be one list of demands, not two (with kid - without kid). I know how to drive there, being tired of taking public transport and cycling with child + stuff. I don't have to think about going child-infested parties, I just go. My child is around the same age as my friends' children, which leads to fun playdates where the moms and dads drink wine and watch the children play. Over there I don't feel left out or behind. I'm not so often angry at myself for being frustrated about our situation or jealous of others. I don't think as much there, I do - because there are more things to do and less time to think.

But in the other universe I have never met my wonderful online twitterfriends, who support me even they don't know me at all. And I may not know how sweet and caring my real life friends can be. Over there I probably don't know how brave I am, sticking needles in my own belly and having awfully painfull procedures done. I might take my children for granted a little bit (not really though - I'm still a good person on the other side ;-)). And maybe in the other universe, I don't realise how much I love my soon-to-be-husband because over there I haven't experienced how amazing he is taking care of me.

This universe is not so bad after all. <3